Short story number 8

Collectables

Sarah Miles had practically the entire collection but then she would, wouldn’t she? Sarah Miles had just about everything she ever wanted and whenever she wanted it. She would line them up provocatively along the edge of her desk; ten wonderful little rubber animals. Two more and the collection would be complete. Darell looked longingly at them. So far he had only managed an elephant with a torn ear, which he had exchanged with Jimmy Robson for five highly prized bubble gums. They were expensive. Why did things always have to be expensive? Darell sat behind Sarah well to the left and had a clear view of his heart’s desire. Every single class there they were: a tiger poised and ready to pounce, with his tail curled high, an eagle with wings fully outstretched, a bear on his hind legs, a dear glancing behind her, a snake coiled around and around with just its head peeking out from its concentric form – so much fun to be had, so many fights, attacks – sometimes fatal, sometimes not. A whole world of wonderful adventures, and all Sarah Miles could do was to stick them in front of her and ignore them. Darell turned back to his exercise. “What I did at the weekend”. He could think of nothing at all. It had rained most of the time. He leaned his head on his hand and stared out of the window. Finally, and it surprised him, the bell went. He just had time to see the prize menagerie scooped up and squashed into a pink fluffy pencil case. Outside, his mother was waiting for him at the gate, along with a lot of other Mums or Dads or older brothers and sisters. “I have a few things to do before we go home, ok Darell?” Darell nodded mechanically and they began to make their way towards the parade of shops that ran just behind the playing fields. They stopped at the bread shop. A wonderful honey smell and lots of things stuffed with cream or smeared with a pink gloss with coloured bits on. His mother bought a ready sliced family loaf and then she suddenly said: “Do you fancy a doughnut, Darell?” She never bought doughnuts. She never bought anything apart from the white sliced and, occasionally, a macaroon for Granny. “Err, yes!”, he stammered. He wondered if he ought to try his luck and ask for one of the pink glossy cakes or two fat meringues with cream bulging between them and a sticky glace cherry submerged on top, but the moment passed.

“Just the post office and then we’re done”.

Off they trudged. The post office was in fact tucked away at the back of a stationer’s. It was the oldest building in the street with lots of steps up and down and curious rooms to the sides. There was a narrow staircase somewhere in the middle but it had a chain strung across it with “Private, no admittance” written in red on a white sign. He always longed to step over it and see just what was beyond the “no admittance”. Right next to the staircase was a small counter crammed with all kinds of useful things for school and behind it, a big roundy lady in a pale blue overall. She had soft, pink cheeks and wore glasses with a gold chain. Her lips were bright red and when she smiled she showed incredibly perfect white teeth. “And, how’s Darell today?” she asked, half looking at Darell and half at his mother.

“Fine, thanks”, he mumbled. The two women began talking and Darell began to idly scan the counter. His eyes stopped short; there they were: the whole incredible collection all practically spilling out of a box right in front of him – all the animals jumbled together. There must have been at least five of every kind. He didn’t plan anything. He didn’t even look up at his mother or the lady in the pink overall. He simply opened his palm as wide as it could go and, spreading his fingers over a random assortment, thrust the rubbery loot into his trouser pocket. For a second, the world stopped: surely something horrible would happen, but it didn’t. He could feel his treasure pressing on his leg and he pulled his jumper down to hide any tell-tale bulge.

“See you soon, Darell”, the pink lady said, and his mother propelled him out of the shop and along the street.

“I’ll get the kettle on as soon as we’re in and we’ll see about those doughnuts”.

Doughnuts? He couldn’t even think about them. What had he done? There must have been at least ten in his pocket. How could he possibly smuggle them into his room? Where would he hide them? He’d never be able to play with them except in the strictest privacy – and he’d never be able to take them to school. No, it was lunacy. They’d just reached the pedestrian crossing. The little green man lit up; they stepped into the road. “It’s now or never” he thought; and ramming his hand into his trousers, he dug out the mass of rubber animals and, as hard as he could, flung them behind him. They were both walking towards the other side and the animals were thrown behind. It should have been the end of a very painful dilemma. But a blue and a red one bounced ahead of them, directly in front of his mother. It was a wonderful turquoise dragon and a bright red crocodile – right in front of his mother.

“What the - ? Darell!” She spun round and there were the remaining pieces of the filched collection at varying intervals over the tarmac.

“Get back onto the pavement”, she yelled.

Cars were already hooting their horns but with one arm held up in an awkward halting position she continued picking up every one of them. Her face was red and puffy looking.

“Right, straight back to the shop” she panted. They marched along in silence, his mother’s plastic mack making a harsh crackling sound as they walked. It wasn’t happening. She wouldn’t make him go back into the shop. She wouldn’t do that. They’d reached the front door.

“In you go, Darell”

The shop was still busy. The lady with the pink cheeks was serving somebody. His mother didn’t wait.

“I’m sorry to interrupt”, she burst out. “My son’s got something to say, haven’t you, Darell?” And she glanced down at him, her eyes wide and staring. He couldn’t speak, he could hardly move.

“What did you do, Darell? She was breathing hard. “Tell the nice lady what you just did”.

“I,..I…-“

“Hello, Darell”, said a familiar voice at his elbow. And there was Sarah Miles, in a smart white imitation leather coat with black shiny buttons.

“I’ve come to buy the two missing animals I need to complete my full set – a dragon and a crocodile. Then I can start collecting ‘My Little Pony’!

Short story number 7

Hello friends,

Please read at your leisure number 7.

Best wishes, Philip

The Heart of a City

The streets may be dirty, the buildings unkempt, the shop traders noisy. When a man has a friend, he sees beyond the physical incognito and what may have been hostile and alien now warms his heart and he feels truly at home.

Meredith had lived fifty years in the city. After seven he had stopped counting. The place had claimed him for its own. He could have left at any time, it was certainly ugly enough, but something had knotted him to it, like a tangled green moss wedded to a wall of granite.

“Full cycles”, “Things come round again” – was that something he’d heard in a song? He hadn’t allowed his thoughts to develop the notion further but, nevertheless, the phrases sat uncomfortably on his chest. Was this city going to discard him after all? a faithless lover who would drop him off now she’d taken all she’d wanted? He turned into Rua Otavio Rocha. So many people, rushing, rushing, “The city is anxious” he thought, “but what could be so pressing?” He wondered if anyone of them would abruptly keel over should he stop them suddenly. Did they see what he saw? They were trampling all over his town. It was his town, not theirs. What were they doing? They had no business to be pounding their vulgar trainers over its cobbles and pushing, pushing. “Perhaps they will push me over?” He felt small and frail. A shudder of helplessness shook him and he teetered into a doorway where in the sudden cool of its corridor he sensed an aura of protection.

A long gray corridor with a number of faceless offices to right and left but right at the end something completely different. There are plenty of such corridors in Porto Alegre. It is impossible to know all of them. Exactly at the end of this one was a large plate glass window and a simple glass fronted door to the left; a beacon at the end of the gray gloom. There were lights burning and the place was buzzing. Instinctively he walked towards it. A large counter swept away to the left and waiters in long white aprons were gliding deftly between the tables. He noticed that there was plenty of movement amongst the customers themselves; some were sitting, others standing. There was a contagious air of animation among them and he stood transfixed at the window. It was then that he saw him. Somebody leaned forward and for a moment he could see a couple sitting a little way behind. He gasped. “João, it’s João!” The gap closed again and he felt his head grow strangely hot. “João, my dear friend, but…”  João had died some forty years previous. He must be mistaken but, no, his prematurely gray beard and moustache and the way he hunched his shoulders forward when he was talking. Had João noticed him? Yes, he had for a moment looked up. They were his eyes; brown laughing eyes but with a whisper of sadness behind them. It was too much. A waiter was walking directly to the door and he quickly moved away back down the corridor and out into the busy street.

How they had laughed together! It was after knowing João that the city had begun to change. How many coffees had they drunk together? How many films had they seen? And what about the choir? Yes, he’d even joined a choir. Those were good days, such good days, and then he’d suffered a devastating stroke and that wonderful friend had simply passed out of his life.

Meredith steadily made his way home but he was no longer conscious of the pressing crowds around him. He was walking once again with João and the certainty of a true friend filled him with an unspeakable joy.

The morning bought with it cold reason. It was just a coincidence; of course, he hadn’t see João but, nonetheless, he got dressed with a curious lightness in his heart and knew without knowing why that he must find that corridor again.

Rua Otavio Rocha once more and teeming with bodies. Perhaps he wouldn’t find it? Perhaps he’d imagined it? Panic gripped him and his head began to swim. A dumpy looking woman stepped out of a doorway and, to avoid colliding with her, he veered sideways and, lurching to the right, found himself standing again in the familiar cool. He slowly raised his head and there it was. He’d not been deceived. This time there was music playing. He knew the tunes, good ones. He could have danced to the door. How cosy it looked. How inviting! There was such laughter and so much activity. He longed to go in. It seemed busier than yesterday. There were people leaning up against the counter and cups and glasses were passing to and fro with a delicious clatter. He couldn’t help it, a smile, one that had long been discarded, crept across his tired face. A peal of laughter, fresh and candid filled his ears. He knew that laughter. Only one person in his life had laughed like that; Elza, his saintly friend, the kindest soul he had ever known; a shoulder to cry on, an ear for a good gossip and a ready companion for any adventure. There she was; a glass of something in her hand and she was looking directly at him; her round eyes laughing and her face radiant and full of love. But dear Elza had been brutally murdered. Her assassin never discovered and her simple, beautiful life extinguished. “Please, come in, Mr. Williamson”. The door was open and an olive skinned waiter with a neat black moustache was standing in the entrance. His long white apron was smooth and spotless. His tray covered in glasses of varying shapes and sizes, “If you want to come back later, please do. We’re keeping a table for you”.

Meredith began to back away. He felt his breath coming hard. He wanted to scream. He wanted to turn around and get back to the clamour of the streets and yet, it looked so tempting and the waiter had such a smile. Elza, João, there they were, and behind them he could just see his old friend Bernardo and Dona Linda, and there was Seu Henrique, dear Seu Henrique.

“Yes, yes, I think I’m ready. Please show me to my table”, and stepping lightly, he crossed into the warm embrace of the little café.

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A small crowd had gathered at the end of the gray corridor. They were clustering round something crumpled on the floor.

“Do you know him?” a voice said.

“Don’t think so. Looks pretty old, poor thing”.

“We’d better call the police but first, let’s move him away from in front of the fire exit”.

Short story number 6

Hello Friends,

At your leisure, short story number 6.

Thank you and best wishes,

Philip

Necessities

Was it a dull life? She rarely asked herself that question and even when she did she wasn’t sure if she could answer it. Mrs. Johnson was fifty seven. She’d been a widow for more that eleven years – it could just as easily have been five or seven. Time was no enemy to her. She never looked longingly to the past and the future was simply a non - threatening blank. She had a cat of whom she was fond and she lived on the 3^rd floor of a bland but comfortable block of 1970s flats. Nothing particularly perturbed her. She was on friendly terms with her neighbours, paid bills on time, was punctual for appointments and never returned her library books late. She occasionally went away by herself to a quiet hotel on the coast, Bengy and her modest pot plants being fed and watered by a friend. Despite these domestic assurances, she was never entirely comfortable and felt a heave of contentment as soon as her train returned home to Oakhampton.

Saturday was market day and when it wasn’t raining she was glad enough to push her shopping trolley around the familiar stalls. True, the fruit and vegetables were not in convenient packs or plastic bags but her inherent instinct for economy would never have allowed her to forego this weekend ritual; however, the supermarket was another story. There were no restrictions as to which day she went and she never imposed any. It was just five minutes from the flat and from her living room window she could see its red neon sign, a beacon of comfort and security, which blazed assuredly night and day. There was always some little thing to be bought. She had become expert at convincing herself of the utter indispensability of any stray item that came into her head. It wasn’t unknown for her to actually go in with no pending item at all but with the certainty that the temporarily unremembered necessity would announce itself forthwith, and it always did. There was a glow about the place; a cheery welcoming plethora of all that reinforced her feelings of well being. The music was never too loud and the songs were neither too modern nor vastly out of date. The wheels of the trolleys were smooth, the floor was smooth and the aisles were wide and welcoming. She knew every shelf and every corner and prided herself on remembering the cashier’s names without having to look at their identity tags.

There weren’t just items to be bought, there were friends, old familiar friends, loyal to the nth degree. She knew their colours, their shapes, even their smells. They sat in her trolley and spoke assuredly to her, ‘We are with you, we will always be – you are quite safe with us’.

There was only one thing guaranteed to unsettle Mrs. Johnson’s sea of calm and that was when, just to peeve her personally, the manager took the unthinkable decision of transferring a perfectly well placed sector of the supermarket to a totally foreign location. It vexed her and she would return home, not before having had a good few words with the erring manager, with the feeling that an intruder had broken into her home and deliberately rearranged all her furniture – it was so upsetting.

One fine Thursday afternoon, a notion to clean the silver came over her. There was more than enough silver polish to complete the job but she couldn’t possibly run the risk of letting stocks run low. She ran her entire home on the same lines – like a tip-top supermarket itself, only in miniature. Immediately, she reached for her pale blue woollen scarf, picked up her handbag from the hall table and lightly stepped out for her daily spiritual sustenance. Not the most fervent church goer could have rivalled her for loyalty and dedication.

As she crossed the road something disturbing caught her eye – the stalwart neon light, the herald to the faithful, was blinking erratically. She would have to speak to the manager at once, it was unheard of. And was it a trick of the light or had the ‘m’ from ‘market’ dropped slightly to the right? There was no time to lose and, quickening her step, she almost threw herself through the plate glass doors, determined to remedy this careless oversight at once.

Her path was almost blocked by a barricade of shopping trolleys – all huddled together any old how instead of in nice neat lines and she was obliged to squeeze through the end one and a pillar, and then she stopped short. The first aisle was littered with pyramids of packages piled high in all directions. She glanced nervously to left and right and almost felt her heart in her throat. Stretching along the shelves and into eternity were dozens of white objects, some square, some rectangle. She craned her neck slightly and found herself reading in plain black lettering ‘sugar’. A long marching column of square white boxes all exactly the same. The boxes swam into other boxes and she read ‘coffee’ and then ‘tea’. All white, all a monotonous uniform white. Her eyes were beginning to glaze over. She looked bewildered up and down the row.

And now she began to notice there were other shapes: bottles; tins of different sizes but all of them, every single one of them dead white. One said ‘oil’, another ‘fish’. Her knees were trembling and she reached out to steady herself.

‘Everything all right, Mrs. Johnson?’ – It was the manager himself but he was different. His tie had gone and he was wearing a white t-shirt with big black letters on it that read ‘Back to basics’. She mouthed the words falteringly and slowly  looked back into his face.

‘That’s right, Mrs. Johnson. Back to basics. We sell food here now, not ideas. You’ll have to bear with us for a while until we’re sorted. Feel free to look around – and now you must excuse me, I have a hundred things to attend to. Good bye, Mrs. Johnson’.

She had never felt so lonely in her life. A woman accidentally nudged her back with a trolley that jogged her forwards. She stumbled like an abandoned child to the end of the aisle. There was a horrible noise in her ears and a ritualistic beat – almost tribal. The voices were laughing at her, taunting her. Something they called ‘rap’, was it? She wanted to get away but there were people behind her and she had to go on – on into that world of white.

‘Oh my friends, why have you forsaken me? Through a doorway with thick strips of transparent plastic, somebody was stuffing something into black sacks. She just had time to see a rich brown, red capped jar, smooth and comforting with ‘Bovril’ written boldly across it being thrust into oblivion; and wasn’t that a  noble green and silver tin of golden syrup disappearing into the black void? No, it was too horrible. No act of barbarity could have more agitated this woman’s heart. They were massacring her closest companions right in front of her and there was nothing she could do about it.

 ‘Bumper introductory bargains this way’ a harsh confident voice growled over the intercom and she found herself being jettisoned forward like a piece of driftwood at the mercy of the tide, carried by a great wave of animated and excited shoppers anxious to buy the basics at sensible prices. Perhaps she should have been grateful for she was suddenly standing by the exit and, inhaling deeply, pushed herself forwards out into the open.

One unsteady step after another and she was at her own front door. It opened heavily. She took off her scarf and placed her bag on the table and, with trembling hands drew the living room curtains. There was comfort in the dark room. She steadily lowered herself into her armchair and sat perfectly, perfectly still.

It’s been six months since the supermarket initiated its new policy. You very rarely find Mrs. Johnson on the premises: in fact, it’s very hard to get hold of Mrs. Johnson at all, what with painting classes, Italian lessons, bridge parties. Nowadays, she’s pretty much game for anything – that is, when you can drag her away from her allotment.

Short story number 5

   Hello friends,

here is story number 5................                    

                        HONEYSUCKLE

‘Do you like travelling?’, she asked him one day, as the young porter gently eased the woman from the wheelchair into the bed.

‘Yes, very much’, though he knew that, apart from one or two brief trips abroad, his scope of travelling was, in most people’s sense of the word, severely limited.

‘My husband and I travelled a lot – not abroad so much – but we covered every inch of Britain’.

Peter wasn’t good at spontaneous conversation. He would have much preferred that the patients remained silent. He certainly did nothing to encourage communication. He’d taken on the job because he needed to earn some money and this opportunity had appeared thanks to a friend of his father’s. He looked at the woman he had just returned to her bed. She had a kindly face and was smiling at him strangely. Instead of leaving, he lingered for a moment. What blue eyes she had.

‘Have you been to any of the islands off Britain?’

No. Pete thought he hadn’t and he vaguely began to wonder which islands.

‘There are some islands which you must visit’.

He remembered the Scilly Isles; a day’s outing with the family when it had rained all day.

‘Alderney is just magnificent, and how we loved Sark. Then, of course, there’s Guernsey and Jersey; so many beautiful places; I do miss them’.

Her blue eyes seemed to have got wider and softer. She wasn’t even looking at him anymore.

‘Don’t let me keep you from your work’

He would have liked to have stayed longer. He felt she wanted to talk and he found himself wanting to listen; something moved him in this woman.

‘Yes, plenty to do. See you tomorrow Mrs. Lewis, and he stepped away from the bed and out of the ward.

Guernsey, Jersey, Alderny, Sark. The words were rolling out like a chant. He found himself repeating them with every step.

Guernsey, Jersey, Alderney, Sark; a mantra of islands.

Later that evening he opened the atlas. There they were. He’d never really thought about them before but this woman, whom he hardly knew, had spoken their names with such affection; they weren’t just names of places, they were experience; a whole series of experiences with a man she must have loved; a vibrant life. He began to smell the salty air and feel the wind blowing across imaginary cliffs and rolling green hills; the lull of waves breaking on sandy shores and the cries of gulls overhead. There would have been walks and boat trips out – maybe fishing. What did they do? Where did they go? Did they drive or take buses? Was there transport on all the islands?

The next day Pete sensed he was looking forward to seeing Mrs. Lewis. He felt shy to start a conversation; she might think it intrusive. As he finished pulling up the coverlet he was suddenly anxious. Perhaps she saw it in his eyes; such kind eyes.

‘How long have you been working here, Pete, it is Pete, isn’t it?’

‘Yes, about two months’.

‘Oh, so you’re getting used to it then. Is this a temporary job?’

Pete found himself talking about his plans, such as they were, of his university course for next year and his intention to visit Italy. She was giving him all her attention and her enthusiasm in his plans were as though she were organizing her own trip. How was he going to travel to Italy and what places would he visit? Her gaiety and excitement encouraged him and together they explored the unknown territory of a new experience just around the corner.

‘You know what I would like to do?’ she said suddenly. ‘I’d love to go outside’.

It hadn’t occurred to Pete; outside, out of the ward, the hospital. Of course, she was there all the time; ward, treatment room and back again in dreary, monotonous routine. This woman who had felt the wind swept spray of far off seas on her face; who had walked up and down rocky coasts and down stony paths into steep cliffed bays; who had breathed in the fresh green of open countryside and delighted in the fragrance of wayside flowers; this same woman now confined to the claustrophobia of imposed internment.

‘Tomorrow’, he said. ‘I’ll think of something’.

The route from ward to treatment area was a reasonably quick one but offered no possibilities of seeing outside. However, there was an alternative.

The next day Pete arrived just a little earlier than usual.

‘An extra blanket today, Mrs. Lewis’.

He tucked her in carefully and they wheeled out of the ward. Instead of turning left, he carried straight on towards the double doors that lead towards the rear of the kitchen and beyond.

‘Where are we going?’, she asked.

‘Wait and see’.

They passed through the double doors and out into the sunlight.

‘Oh’, she said involuntarily as the sudden brightness filled her face.

‘We’re going on a little diversion’.

The hospital was located right at the end of town and backed onto rolling downs. The road to the treatment centre was still edged on one side by an old farmer’s hedge. Pete pushed the chair very very slowly and the wheels brushed the rich foliage cascading in glorious profusion. Mrs. Lewis stretched out her hand and trailed it through the leaves.

‘Oh, just stop a moment, Peter’.

‘We can stop as long as you like, Mrs. Lewis’.

A dancing frond of honeysuckle wafted near her face and she gently pulled it towards her and almost reverently drew in the scent.

‘Lovely, lovely’, she said.

They inched their way forward and she beamed at the bright yellow dandylions bobbing at her feet. Sparrows were twittering near by and again they stopped.

‘Listen, just listen’.

They were no longer in the hospital. They were somewhere far away.

Pete waited in the still rich silence. Perhaps Mrs. Lewis was on one of her islands. She was so quiet, he almost dared not breathe. A pale yellow butterfly emerged from the hedge and flew in its dancing fashion ahead of them. They both watched it until it melted into the haze of the summer morning.

‘I think we can go now’, she said.

They moved off in silence. A ramp lead up from the road to the entrance. As they pushed through the swing doors a nurse looked strangely for a moment but said nothing. Mrs. Lewis turned to him with a sweet fondness in her blue eyes.

‘Thank you, thank you so much’.

The next couple of hours were busier than usual and another porter took the patient back to the ward.

Pete was already thinking about the book he’d be bringing in tomorrow, a big colourful book of the British Isles. He’d never bothered to look at it before but he knew who would enjoy exploring its pages.

The following morning he walked up to the ward early. He wanted to give her plenty of time to see it before he took her for treatment. He entered the room and for a moment thought he’d misplaced her bed, but there it was, neatly made up with fresh, crisp, white sheets and two large, smooth pillows. Her name was no longer pinned above it. He stood for a moment unable to move.

‘I’m sorry, Peter’, said a young nurse. ‘Were you looking for Mrs. Lewis? I’m afraid we lost her during the night. You were quite friendly with her, weren’t you?’

Peter nodded and tried to smile.

‘It’s not easy’, she said, touching his arm, ‘but you’ll get used to it’.

He felt the book hard and awkward under his arm. ‘Why did it have to be like that?’ He turned and left the ward and there ahead of him were the double doors leading out into the sunlight. And he suddenly smiled, a rich, warm, summer smile and pushed his way into the still sweet air of an August morning.

Short story number 4

Hello Friends,

This story and the next that will follow were inspired from my brief but important and influential time working at the, sadly now demolished, St. Luke's hospital in Guildford, Surrey when I was 18/19 years old.

I hope you enjoy them.

Very best wishes,

Philip

  

Betty

Just another three days to go. It surely wouldn’t be so difficult – and how she longed for a cigarette, just one. She had enacted the scenario over and over again; one flick of the lid, a deft tap on the bottom of the pack and two or three slender sticks sprouting up, the tallest sliding out and slipping into her fingers; light and draw – draw in that sweet heady comforter, the friend through thick and thin; placid, not demanding, just present, so much present, constant, constantly present, “God, damn it, why can’t I have just one? what the hell difference does it make anyway?” She scrunched up the coarse blue coverlet with her left hand and breathed hard. The pain was there, inert but immovable.

Opposite her bed the curtains were still drawn. There was always plenty of movement in the morning; bed baths, bed pans, porters with their long wooden poles to slide into the sleeves of the canvas stretchers and take away another patient for treatment; still drawn around the bed opposite; too long for a bed bath. She could see vague human forms pushing out momentarily as the nurses busied around the bed. They did their best, the nurses, but it didn’t fool anyone. At that moment you didn’t ask, you didn’t comment. She concentrated on the tea trolley steadily making its way down the ward. The tea lady was nice, friendly even, but she spoke with such an accent. Betty had given up trying to understand, but she appreciated the generous smile – the light in her eyes. She had even entertained the thought of acquiring an alibi and persuading her to smuggle her out for a cigarette; certainly the woman smoked, she could smell it on her breath, a faint delicious waft of nicotine – but she had long ago given up on the idea and it remained merely a vague fantasy.

Would the nurses really do what she had asked? They were so busy; friendly, yes; it seemed they only ever smiled – and why shouldn’t they? They were all mostly young and healthy, probably with boyfriends or husbands while she – but no, not that avenue, put those thoughts away Betty and concentrate on the plan – such a simple one, she knew she could do it.

“Everything all right, Betty?”

“Just fine, thank you!”

There we are. She’d said it again. What else were you supposed to say?

“Well, for someone with a life perspective of precisely nil …”

Focus, focus; she wanted it green; a lovely lurid green, just like she’d had for her wonderful 18^th birthday – and what a party it had been! There were so many people and so many presents. Of course, there had been plenty of birthdays since, but that one simply shone out from the rest.

The world stops when you’re lying in a bed. It pulls in on all sides and presses in on you. This is all that’s left. This is it. There were no visitors, but she hadn’t really expected anyone. There was so much time to think – but what was the point? If she had been selfish most of her life – and she was pretty sure she had been – it wasn’t going to make much difference now.

The tea lady had passed. She was almost out of the ward. There was the blue cup and saucer and a digestive perched jauntily on the side. Had she slept? – she must have done, but then she was doing that most of the time. Often she had no concept of how long she was asleep or awake. The tea lay untouched. Betty was sleeping again.

“Everything’s set for this afternoon, Miss Cooper – and here are some lovely flowers – there’re from all of us on the ward”.

There was a pretty nurse beaming by the side of the bed and bright yellow chrysanthemums were bobbing about in front of her face.

“Already, already” she thought excitedly. “Oh my God, I’ve done it! Thank you so much, thank you, thank you!”

Tears were welling up in her eyes and she felt a huge one trickle down her right cheek.

“Oh, there now luv, don’t cry, this is supposed to be your birthday”

“And, and, what about the cake, is it really coming?”

“Yes, dear, in about an hour”

“And is it, is it green, like I asked?”

“As green as the leaves of these chrysanthemums”.

Betty sank back on the pillows.

There will be enough for everyone. Everyone will have a slice of my lovely cake – just like they did all those years ago. Oh God, I’ve done it – I’ve really done it.

A sudden flurry of movement near the entrance to the ward woke Betty up. A group of excited nurses were pushing something towards her on a trolley that squeaked and rocked slightly. It stopped in front of her. They were all smiling. What was she supposed to do? – And suddenly, there it was; huge, square and green, as green as the leaves of the chrysanthemums.

“We’ll cut it for you, Betty”

“Yes, yes, you do that” – Had she said that or did she just think it?

The cake moved away slightly and the nurses cut into the soft green icing. Little plates were being handed out all around the ward. Everyone was eating; everyone was eating Betty’s green cake, just like they did all those years ago.

A wonderful gentle calm seemed to settle over her – she felt it trickling into her pores and relaxing the muscles on her face. The palms of her hands lay face down by the side of her body. She slowly closed her eyes and breathed softly. All was well. All was really just fine.

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Another busy morning, porters and nurses everywhere. The sounds of bed baths and commodes and the rattle of the tea trolley.  Around one of the beds the curtains were still drawn and the vague shapes of human forms could be seen momentarily as the nurses busied around the bed…

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Short story number 3

Hello friends!

Here is story number 3. The first 5 stories were written in Santa Catarina. Numbers 1 and 2 were inspired by people in the neighbouring chalet while the present story was written inspired by a little black dog that made friends with us.
Hope you enjoy it!

Very best wishes,

Philip

It’s a Dog's Life

When you are grey flecked, black, slim, with eyes a little too wide apart and protruding slightly from a bulbous little head that smacks of pit bull – not one of the most endearing breeds, and all this a top of  an incongruously slim greyhound style body, a dog needs to be smart. And this one had schooled himself more than adequately in the art of survival and charm. Out of season was another thing altogether, but this was peak charm time and he wasn’t going to lose any chances.

He broke a lot of hearts – he knew that, but that wasn’t his problem. You couldn’t blame him for the way he was – a broken home, a mother of dubious morals and a daunting list of possible fathers. His path was an uncertain one from the very beginning and he soon perceived that, if he were to have any real chance of survival, he was going to have to learn fast.

He was a beach dog, but not of any one in particular. You had to be ready for any opportunity and if that meant hiking up and down hills and into other bays, so be it. There were all sorts of little surprises – an old ice cream carton filled with water by a front door – very thoughtful of the owners. Left-overs from the beach-side restaurants thrown out in surprisingly easy-to-tear plastic sacks. But this was undignified business. This dog was a lady’s man, or man’s man, or anyone else’s really in whom he could exercise his seduction skills. He had cultivated a highly endearing whimper and a way of lowering his head in the most pathetic and appealing manner. Admittedly, he couldn’t win every time hands down but there was always somebody who would see his doleful performance and be suitably moved.

Young girls cooed and sighed. Down would go the head a little further and he would look up with an irresistible plea for their attention, their exclusive and unconditional surrender to his desperate need for love and affection. Within less than a minute there was a biscuit or two or, in some cases, even a piece of chocolate. With men it was different. He would cock his head on one side and pause attentively, waiting for an encouraging click of a thumb and finger to beckon him for a stroke. Men liked to show that they were in command and he was expert at receiving grateful pats with a submissive but faithful glimmer in his eyes. The next stage was to hang about his adopted providers long enough to begin appealing to their sympathies and sense of responsibility, without being too pushy or showing signs of desperation, a sure way of ending the game abruptly. He would gamble about and wag his tail and run a little ahead – always turning to check he was well within view. “Oh look, he wants to come with us!”, or “I think he’s following us” – all encouraging signs of doggy bonding. Sometimes this took him straight to the beach away from the bars and restaurants – the prospective for welcome pieces of fish or batter from the prawn fritters seriously diminishing, but, there might be the odd something lurking in the numerous bags that people insisted in carrying with them and if things really began to look hopeless, there were plenty of other possible candidates.

Of course, there had been occasions when he’d genuinely felt a glimmer of cosy belonging. It was a dangerous emotion and had more than once left him strangely forlorn when this fleeting illusion of being loved had melted away all too quickly and, with sad regretful eyes, in pathetic contrast to his well rehearsed theatrical version, his fanciful owner had turned round and gazed at him from the car window as it drove away. But on the whole, he felt he was in control.

In one particular moment when business was tediously slack, a large white car suddenly drew up and stopped just before the beach steps. With a noticeable lack of agility, two large puffy legs with feet of similar description squeezed into gold coloured sandals descended. He hadn’t even begun his accustomed routine when he heard a high squeal and the two puffy legs came lolloping towards him. Something told him to run but he was strangely mesmerized. Within an instant two flabby arms with clanking metal rings were reaching out and, in a moment he was being propelled into the air and wiggled from side to side in a very undignified manner. What was she doing? – Yes, she was puckering her lips and something was planted warm and wet on his nose. For the first time in his life he was losing control of the situation and with alarming speed. With unnerving vigour he was clasped to the large bosom of this uninvited benefactress; the smell of her perfume was overpowering. There was someone else with her and she spoke excitedly to him. The man was reaching for something from the car and before he could release himself from the grip of the flabby armed woman a bright red loop was lowered over his head. It suddenly tightened and he felt a strong tug. She was covering him again with kisses and was trying to lower herself with him into the car. Was this what he’d thought he’d wanted? Someone special who would treat him well every day, feed him and pet him? No, not at all! With a wild spasm, he jerked himself free. For a moment the red cord choked him as he tumbled to the ground, but in seconds he was on his feet and running and running – away down the steps and far across the beach, the red cord trailing and leaving a snaky impression on the sun bleached sand. He ran past the rocks and the river inlet, on towards the dunes. Only when he was safely within their welcome shadow did he stop, his tongue lolling out and his bulging eyes alarmingly distended. He was confused and frightened. The experience had been humbling. You could never be too careful, even a talented heart puller like himself. He sniffed the red cord disdainfully. It would probably take days before he could rid himself of it but no matter.

The long line of breakers hummed in his ears. They moved along sideways like a steam train before dispersing themselves in the wash. Above him the albatross wheeled in the air currents. In the shadow of the dunes it was cool and so, so comfortable. He let out a prolonged sigh of relief. He was a beach dog and more than ever before in his life he felt immeasurably happy to be one.

Short story number 2

Hello Friends,

Thank you so much for taking the time to read my first story and for the very encouraging response.
When you have the time, here is my second story, which I hope you will enjoy.

Bye for now,

Best wishes,

Philip

The Swimming Lesson

“Ok, ok, but are the tables ready? I need the tables by Wednesday, get it?” Lucio slapped down the mobile. “What do I need to do to get a simple set of tables produced?”

He wiped the sweat on his brow and rubbed his hand on his shorts. There was still plenty to be done before Wednesday, at least two more projects in the pipeline. They could wait or could they? But why wait when it was so easy to begin planning?

He switched programmes and began tapping the keyboard.

“Aren’t you coming down for breakfast?” His wife was standing by the open door of the chalet with their little boy tugging at her tea-shirt.

“Come, Dad”, he whined.

“In a minute, son. Just let Daddy finish this”

His wife didn’t bother to respond but began making her way down the steps that lead to the hexagonal room where breakfast was being served.

“We’ll go for a swim later, ok Duda?” Lucio kept his eyes fixed on the screen. “Ok, Duda?”

But Duda was already ahead of his mother and hadn’t heard him.

Tap, tap, tap. “If I could just get this started”…

The mobile began to buzz – confidential number. It could only be his boss.

“Yes, sir!”

“Yes, lovely thanks. Wonderful weather, very hot”.

“Yes, absolutely, I really need the break”.

“Yes, they’re fine – enjoying themselves very much.

“Of course! – they‘ll all be ready by Wednesday. You know me. Once I set my mind to something I get it done”.

“Don’t you worry, plenty of time to relax”

“Yes, we will. Thanks”.

“Yes, I’ll be there. Bye.”

Tap, tap, tap. The sweat was trickling constantly; it dripped onto the keyboard.

“Bugger it!”

He could go down for breakfast but then there’d be the conversation and his wife would be sure to want to make plans for the day. She was so exacting. Why couldn’t she understand that work couldn’t wait? Weren’t they all on holiday together? Hadn’t he taken time away from the office to get them all away to the beach? And who was paying for this holiday anyway?

Tap, tap, tap. He’d grab a coffee later, or get something down at the beach. There’d be plenty of time.

His wife was tired. “Laptops and mobiles are transforming the business world”, Lucio had announced to her one day. She didn’t need Lucio’s speeches to know that her own life was certainly transformed. He had less and less time for her and certainly much less for little Duda. His promises had become mere banalities. She had stopped believing them long ago and more sadly, so had Duda.

A couple slightly older than she and her husband were staying in the adjacent chalet. They had struck up a holiday friendship and Sara was glad of their company. This time, they beckoned her and Duda to their table. They had warm open faces and conversation seemed to flow so easily. How comfortable she felt. Their friendly easiness soothed her irresistibly and she fell readily into light, undemanding chatter. Lucio could stay as long as he liked with his lap top. Just at this moment the mellow smell of coffee and the table littered with breakfast temptations was all that she needed.

Duda swung his legs restlessly under his chair. “Why do adults have to talk so much?” Don’t they get bored just sitting and sitting and talking and talking?” There were so many other things much more interesting to do. He couldn’t see any attraction in being grown up at all and felt almost relieved to be so much younger than them all. The wicker chair was wide with a silky slippery green cushion. He slowly began to slide down it until his feet just touched the parquet – nobody noticed. He inched a bit further down and then slithered to the floor and waited to be called back to his seat. There were his mother’s slim brown legs, two rather fat, white legs of Mummy’s friend, and two skinny legs of the man, covered in silky black hairs, not like his father’s at all which were smooth and muscular. The conversation continued on and on. There was a space between the man’s chair and his own – just room enough to squeeze through without attracting attention. He pushed forwards on his hands and knees, keeping his eyes fixed on the open door. Just a bit further, a little bit further… and he was out! What a laugh, and no one had even noticed! There at the bottom of the grassy slope was the swimming pool; a lovely turquoise blue shimmering in the sunlight. He ran down the slope eagerly and stopped at the edge. There was nobody around. They’d been at the resort three days and he’d still not been in. “Just my toes”, he said. “It’ll be so nice to splash them”. He sat right at the edge, slipped off his flip-flops and lowered his feet into the water.

“So cool, so delicious” – he wriggled a bit further forward. How good to feel the water creeping up his legs – too good to resist. And suddenly, he slipped! It was so fast, too fast! The turquoise blue and sunlight was all around him and in him and choking him.

From up at the chalet’s you could have seen the frantic disturbance on the surface of the water, could even have heard the anguished, burbling cries.

“Just five more minutes and I’ll be done”, said Lucio, frowning at the screen – and then I’ll see about that swim for Duda!”